If Only

**She thought she had it all, when she really had nothing but pain and anguish...... Back in high school Hakim Beaumont, approached Motifah Isaac and asked her to be his girl but she couldn't stand the guy because he always thought he was better than anyone else and he was so progressive. It was a couple months later when she noticed she had feelings for this guy. He was the captain on the football team, and the point guard on the basketball team. So they dated and a few months after their graduation from college they were married and her life became a nightmare from hell. The tables turned and she knew that she couldn't ever trust another man not after all she had encountered with Hakim Beaumont. How he betrayed her trust and ruined their marriage after all those years. She didn't know Hakim like she thought she did, until the man that she thought loved her done all those terrible things to her and to their innocent children. She knew then that she had to do what every it took to get away from him, even if it meant murdering her own husband in cold blood.. Trying not to fall back in love, but she was fighting a losing battle.......... As Jarmare' Travail picks up his phone one night to dial a friend, he ends up dialing Ms. Motifah Beaumont Isaac's number. He told himself that after what his trifling wife had done to him that he would never fall in love again. It seemed as if the moment she picked up the phone to say hello Jarmare' knew then he had to know more about this voluptuous lady on the other end. Motifah wondered as to why she let him, a total stranger inside her heart when she vowed to never go through the pain of falling in love again. Just when she wanted to give up on all men Jarmare' came into her life and changed her whole demeanor about love. He wanted to prove to her that love didn't hurt, that it was meant to be true and full of happiness. Motifah knew he couldn't or wouldn't ever love her as she needed to be loved because all men were dogs and basically she was tired of them using and abusing her. It was only a year and a half later that Jarmare' showed Motifah Isaac the real joys in life, the love they longed for seemed like it took forever to occur due to the trifling people they were married too. Jarmare was a man of his word and gave her the love and the world that she never knew existed... Well Until Now.